cynical cindy

I hate how cynical I've become...

I blame my uterus. And Facebook.

For instance, I'm 10 dpo (I freaking think...the doc hasn't called with my blood results from MONDAY to make sure I ovulated...I called this morning and left a message that I need my results.  Don't they know they're working with stage 5 crazy here??) and of COURSE I peed on a stick this morning. Ok maybe I've been peeing on sticks since 7dpo (did I mention I'm crazy?) but I can afford to thanks to www.early-pregnancy-tests.com :) In the fertility blog world those are referred to as "internet cheapies" and they rule!  Anyway my internet cheapie was negative.  And already I'm convinced I'm out this month.  It's 4 days before I should be testing and I'm already convinced...I think they call that being jaded.  heh. 

Forget about pregnancy announcements...make me want to punch someone in the face!  I know that's insensitive and I should be happy for other people...and I am happy for some of them that they are getting to experience the "joys of pregnancy" and motherhood, but I also want to scream in their faces.  Oops.  And then there's the people who complain about their pregnancy on the ever-wonderful facebook.  "Omg I can't believe I had to wait an HOUR to hear my baby's heartbeat."  Hey, why don't you go fuck yourself.  Oh, that's rude, Jill...don't say things like that. 

Obviously when I see a baby my heart melts and my uterus skips a beat.  It's not the baby's fault they're awesome and they're mom complained the whole time she was baking them :)

I should also say I recognize that I have zero idea if some of these women that I want to punch have had struggles of their own.  I know some of them haven't, and those are generally the complainers.  Funny how that works isn't it?

Remember earlier when I said the drugs weren't making me crazy?  I think I lied...

In lighter news, my sister paid for my mani/pedi last night for watching their dog while they were honeymooning, so that ruled. 

So, that's my rant.  Maybe I'm pregnant so I'm moody or maybe the drugs are making it happen, but I ranted, now I'm done.  I declare that the rest of my day will be joyful! Happy October, and happy thursday all!