yet another month

Called in my clomid rx today.  We know what that means.  I knew on Friday that I wasn't pregnant...I could just tell.  So had my emotional breakdown on Friday, then on Saturday when the bitch actually showed up I was ok.  The visual was something else: in my sweatpants, heating pad stuffed inside said sweatpants, glasses on, hair a mess, watching the UGA game....UGHHHHHHHHH...eating pizza.  That's right.  I ate REAL pizza.  With cheese and everything.  Holy crap it was good.  I feel like hell today because of it, but at the time I needed comfort :)  My husband is the coolest cat around.  When I came out of the bathroom and said I had started, he went to the store and got me a "period survival kit" including Advil, sour worms and oreos (which, did you know oreos have no dairy in them?? BONUS! - wait, I just said I ate pizza...oops) I'm feeling ok now.  It is what it is, and there's nothing I can do to change it.  I find comfort in always having a "next step" and we have decided that if I'm not pregnant in the next 2 months (being the 2nd 3-month round of crazy pills) then it's time to see a specialist.  It was probably time before but I'm in denial :) but over 2 years of trying with miscarriages in between...yeah, it's probably time :)  As for now, I'm going to enjoy this delicious fall weather and run my little tail off.  OH!  I had registered to run the silver comet half marathon a couple months ago...which is at the end of this month.  Perhaps I should train for it?  I mean, I run often, so I could do it without training if I needed to, but I'm sure as shit not going to beat my time from last year.  But let's get real, I know myself and I know that by the time it's time to run the half I will not have started my next cycle, so I won't know if I'm actually pregnant yet so I probably won't run it.  Heh...or maybe I will start testing at 7dpo again ( :) ) and will know I'm not pregnant and can run it.  Oh, I don't know...for now I'll run my measly 5-6 miles in the gym, call it a day and worry about getting my race t-shirt later :)