We got the best puppy ever. I'm just saying. He's an evil genius. He already knows his name, "come" and "sit." And my god he's precious! This pup LOVES to chill. He has two modes: playtime (including but not limited to, trying to eat the cat, picking up his water bowl in his mouth, no matter if it's full of water or not which can lead to dumping water ALL over the floor, and carrying it around, running like a wild man in the yard with his big brother, and chewing his toys -or trying to chew other things but listens pretty well when we tell him no and give him the right things to chew on- ) & passed out. He is QUITE the daddy's boy. Brody follows Josh around like Tucker follows me around. It's so cute! I should also say that while having 2 dogs is a lot of work, it's also a lot easier because they really entertain each other :) My mom told me the other day that she thinks Josh is a genius for getting us a puppy. She also recognizes the pup as the distraction (which is really working for the most part...I haven't been stressed about getting pregnant until...like yesterday - more to follow on that) but she thinks this is a very healthy thing. Giving us something to do instead of stress out about not having babies! She's right! Brody is filling all sorts of voids! Sweet story moment...last Sunday morning I had gotten up, gotten Brody from his crate, taken the boys out to potty and eat, then gone back up to bed and the 4 of us were in the bed snuggling. Josh and I were both laying with our arms above our heads you know? and he looked at me and reached for my hand and held it and said he was happy with the little family that we have so far. He's a good one, I tell ya.
Now let's talk fertilization! FUN!
So, tuesday, my bff Judy (ok, fine, she's just my nurse) called from Dr. M's office. She sounded perplexed. She asked about my previous cycle, I went through the whole process with her again, about getting the high progesterone level, feeling pregnant, then starting, going in and meeting with Dr. M and blah blah blah. I said that he had told me I was pregnant last cycle but m/c very early. She said, "Right. You're probably pregnant again because your progesterone was a 30 this time too." Joy and rapture right?! Something like that. I flat out said to her, "well, as I live in a constant state of the worst case scenario, if I start Dr. M said that should this happen again we have to go after why it's happening." She then said, "yes, if you start we have to send you somewhere else." Ummm...mixed feelings about this. For starters my doctor knows everything that has happened with me and my
broken anatomy since I was 20 years old. He's extremely calming. He almost makes the shitty things that happen ok because his bedside manner is amazing. So going through this with a doctor like him has been a blessing. Not like I would never see him again, because he still is my GYN, but you know what I mean :) Having to learn a new doctor is sometimes weird. Dr. M gets me. This is starting to sound creepy...I'm talking about a man who's job is my vagina. Moving on. So on the flip side of that, it's time to see a specialist. Oh, I should mention why I'm going off the deep end and my nurse told me I'm probably pregnant. This would be because I've had negative tests and all period symptoms are a go. The tell-tale sign that I'm about to bleed (I have so much tact) is if my back hurts, and indeed it does...so I'm saying I'm out. Could be wrong, but I'm going with no. Back to the specialist. It's time. I know this. Josh knows this. Everyone in my life knows this but I was really struggling with pulling the plug on it. I have a REALLY hard time giving up on something. Meaning I was having a hard time on giving up on the options that my doctor had given me. And now that it will be his recommendation to move on I feel supported and have a sense of "this is the right thing to do" about it. All this said, maybe we won't have to see a specialist, but if we do, so be it. We will live, we will be happy and we will get our baby one way or the other. For now we will just have a 4-legged baby ;)
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