in the meantime

baby making on hold...hawaii on the brain! Which, btw, my therapist is like so happy that we are having this vacation before starting IVF. Us too. And she was like, you flippin deserve a good vacation. It made me super uncomfortable when she said "deserve" becauseI totally have issues with deserving things ;) need. more. therapy.! haha! Anyhoo, we started the South Beach Diet and holy moly! The first 5 days were pretty rough. I thought I was going to kill someone or myself because I just wanted a damn carb! Now, though, I feel so amazing. I realize that I've really broken my addiction to food. Not just carbs, but to food. Food is not happiness. Food is not love. Food is not comfort. Food is nourishment. End of story. This is how food used to appear to me...you know, when I was 15 lbs lighter and never touched a carb. Oopsie! Well we started the SBD and I feel AMAZING now. It's funny bc I went from vegan to meat and veggies. Perhaps I lose weight fast bc I completely change what I eat and my body freaks out. I'm not sure, and I'm not sure I care! As of this morning I'm down 10 lbs! WHAT WHAT!!! Hawaii bod here I come!!!! Plus, eating lean protein, veggies, nuts and eggs can't be bad for you right?! We can start introducing some fruits back next week. So that's fun and exciting :)

Also.........this past weekend our fridge died. Sad day. Josh tried lots of things to fix it and nada. I'm surprised we didn't get dysentery because we didn't realize things weren't as cold as they should be until a few days after. But that being said, apparently President's Day is the day you want to have to buy new appliances because everything is on sale. Hell yes. We decided to go ahead and get the fridge we have wanted for a while...it's a 4-door french door fridge and it is GLORIOUS!!!!!!!!!!!! They delivered it yesterday and I have inappropriately sexual feelings toward my refrigerator. It is massive and gorgeous. That's what she said.